Growing up is definately the only thing everyone in the world continues to learn how to do...
We never stop growing up, always learning from our actions, always gaining or losing from our experiences, always looking ahead and tackling the oncoming obstacles in our life.
Growing up isn't easy though...actually no one said it was easy, but a lot of people who have yet to experience hardship or trouble in their life can truly understand the extremities one must endure and face in order to grow. Going through life you always get the good and bad...some more than others in terms of the good, and vice versa for the bad but one thing remains constant no matter the experience we face...we grow up. Always one will learn from something, gain wisdom from experience, knowledge from seeking truth, and mainly grow up from understanding another piece of their life... Everyone grows up differently, from this their experiences will be different and their outcomes will be different, the life one has will be different from anothers, and this all stems from how they grow up...
A good student, attentive in school, obeys his parents, does not dare waver against societies standards, and strives for their best will most likely turn out to become a successful person who has a great focus on work in their later years of life. A bad student, couldn't care for school, disobeys parents, will risk going against societies orders, and procrastinate so much to have no care in the world, will likely turn out to be a dead beat...Not to say this is fact and will happen, their are exceptions and even so, people can still change their life for you see, the people in these situations can actually reverse roles...A good student could later on rebel against their tiresome and routine life and take a trip on the wild side, this would in turn take a dramatic change and cause them to make decisions they never usually would growing up, but it is the cause of how they grew up that made them want a different style of living. Same for the bad student, eventually having a trouble filled life later on will cause them to straighten up and become harder workers, dedicated people, who now better understand things because of their position on the other side...It's kinda like the whole "who better to catch criminal, than a criminal?" have to be in the shoes of the bad to understand how much it is better to be good, and vice versa...
Anyway growing up is something we all do...I have a tonne of growing up to do still, actually I look forward to it as well...That way ill be able to take a trip down the wild side more often ;) HAHA
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Saturday, December 12, 2009
[><><><><> Powerless Despair <><><><><]
Been a while since I wrote here but well here's another entry...
To me, for one to be powerless they allow it to happen... Everyone and anyone always has a choice to make a difference or change or just decide even. The power for us to have decisions, to have consequences, to have outcomes, to have changes, this allows us to never be powerless... If we ever find ourselves powerless it is only because we allow this to happen, we can in fact do anything we dedicate or set our minds to, it's just a matter of whether or not you're motivated, dedicated, inspired, and willing to go far enough and make the hard decisions or extreme circumstances...
I never feel like I'm powerless...only in struggle with myself. I understand that choice is my given right, but I also understand that I cannot make decisions based off of selfish desire and reason, people around you are affected by the choices you make, not as much as yourself but the affect still has an impact. Family, friends, couples, married partners, co-workers, peers, anyone and everyone around you can and most likely will be impacted by your decisions. It is just whether you yourself can accept the impact it will leave and allow yourself to deal with the repercussions later...
A decision cannot be made as well without weighing the consequences of your choice and action that follows your decision. We simply cannot ignore risk, ignore hurt, ignore trouble, ignorance is not something anyone should practice. Everyone must seek understanding, seek fact, and with this understand what circumstances and outcomes occur from their decisions...We cannot just abandon without thought, or think without wonder, and wonder without decide. Deciding on a choice is hard, problems occur no matter what the decision is, because it is the action that justifies your reason, and your action is what determines your outcome and risk.
Decisions aren't always made to go your way. A decision is something that has to be made, and cannot simply be post-pone as it more likely than always escalates the circumstances and risks involved. Whether or not we chose to have this happen, it is up to how much power we have to control the situation and outcomes that occur from your decisions...We always have a choice, a decision, and this allows us to never be powerless, but it is in times of despair where one cannot help but feel powerless, as their decisions and choices are limited to things they do not wish, but however must make...This despair is what makes power seem like weakness...and if we accept we are weak and give up....than that is a choice we have abandoned...we abandon ourselves, we abandon our hopes, we abandon our power....we abandon our chance...
To abandon something shows REAL powerlessness and even though it is caused by despair....we still allow this to happen....we always have a choice, a decision we can make to sway the outcome to our wants....only our dedication, motivation, and inspiration can turn despair into a time of power...power is not something we must abuse and demand....power is something everyone needs....a little power can go a long way with enough dedication....but to be denied power and than give up the power of choice...that is when you know you're in despair....and in times of despair you cannot allow yourself to give up...otherwise....you are POWERLESS...
To me, for one to be powerless they allow it to happen... Everyone and anyone always has a choice to make a difference or change or just decide even. The power for us to have decisions, to have consequences, to have outcomes, to have changes, this allows us to never be powerless... If we ever find ourselves powerless it is only because we allow this to happen, we can in fact do anything we dedicate or set our minds to, it's just a matter of whether or not you're motivated, dedicated, inspired, and willing to go far enough and make the hard decisions or extreme circumstances...
I never feel like I'm powerless...only in struggle with myself. I understand that choice is my given right, but I also understand that I cannot make decisions based off of selfish desire and reason, people around you are affected by the choices you make, not as much as yourself but the affect still has an impact. Family, friends, couples, married partners, co-workers, peers, anyone and everyone around you can and most likely will be impacted by your decisions. It is just whether you yourself can accept the impact it will leave and allow yourself to deal with the repercussions later...
A decision cannot be made as well without weighing the consequences of your choice and action that follows your decision. We simply cannot ignore risk, ignore hurt, ignore trouble, ignorance is not something anyone should practice. Everyone must seek understanding, seek fact, and with this understand what circumstances and outcomes occur from their decisions...We cannot just abandon without thought, or think without wonder, and wonder without decide. Deciding on a choice is hard, problems occur no matter what the decision is, because it is the action that justifies your reason, and your action is what determines your outcome and risk.
Decisions aren't always made to go your way. A decision is something that has to be made, and cannot simply be post-pone as it more likely than always escalates the circumstances and risks involved. Whether or not we chose to have this happen, it is up to how much power we have to control the situation and outcomes that occur from your decisions...We always have a choice, a decision, and this allows us to never be powerless, but it is in times of despair where one cannot help but feel powerless, as their decisions and choices are limited to things they do not wish, but however must make...This despair is what makes power seem like weakness...and if we accept we are weak and give up....than that is a choice we have abandoned...we abandon ourselves, we abandon our hopes, we abandon our power....we abandon our chance...
To abandon something shows REAL powerlessness and even though it is caused by despair....we still allow this to happen....we always have a choice, a decision we can make to sway the outcome to our wants....only our dedication, motivation, and inspiration can turn despair into a time of power...power is not something we must abuse and demand....power is something everyone needs....a little power can go a long way with enough dedication....but to be denied power and than give up the power of choice...that is when you know you're in despair....and in times of despair you cannot allow yourself to give up...otherwise....you are POWERLESS...
Sunday, December 6, 2009
/...I Hate...\
Now let's see, I could spout off a huge amount of things I hate, anyone could...Everyone uses the phrase "I hate..." a lot, but there are certain things a person never stops hating...
For me, it's liars, fakes, and morons. There is a lot of them around and everyone probably knows one, they just don't know it yet because their being fake, or maybe you've been hurt by a fake before?
Lying is a thing everyone does, fact is I don't hate lying, people only lie when they have a good reason or because it's hard for them to open up to another person, like you can't talk about being raped or killing someone on a first date can you?? However there's a difference, liars are people who just don't stop, and their only reason is to cover up the pathetic excuse of a person they really are... It sickens me how people can go and lie constantly to someone's face, you just can't justify it, being shy nor is embarrassment an excuse, if it's that hard just simply say it's hard, no need to create a farfetch'd lie about it.
Fakes. They are the lowest of people and are usually the creation of their lies, so they are also same league as liars. They're people who simply just go and copy others or pretend to be something they're not. They compare themselves with others, than try and emulate them creating a mirage of who they are...These people I hate and the lot of them need to go and grow up, being fake is the worst, it just causes trouble for everyone and can be dangerous to the unsuspecting person who believes in these fake images.
Morons, well they're morons, people who are just uneducated, misunderstood idiots who have nothing better to do than just continue their journey into idiocy and ignorance. These are people who will not learn or seek fact and truth, they are people who sit there, claim they're superiority through false knowledge or false beliefs and upon being shown truth or fact, reject it and continue to claim their selves as superior. A moron simply put is an ignorant, idiotic and uneducated person, who cannot understand fact from fiction nor learn it.
That all said and done I'd just like to end with the fact that Leah Dizon & Misa Campo are HOT! HAHA XD
If they're fake...well I could not give a hell because they are good enough already as a fantasy, reality would make them all the better haha =D
For me, it's liars, fakes, and morons. There is a lot of them around and everyone probably knows one, they just don't know it yet because their being fake, or maybe you've been hurt by a fake before?
Lying is a thing everyone does, fact is I don't hate lying, people only lie when they have a good reason or because it's hard for them to open up to another person, like you can't talk about being raped or killing someone on a first date can you?? However there's a difference, liars are people who just don't stop, and their only reason is to cover up the pathetic excuse of a person they really are... It sickens me how people can go and lie constantly to someone's face, you just can't justify it, being shy nor is embarrassment an excuse, if it's that hard just simply say it's hard, no need to create a farfetch'd lie about it.
Fakes. They are the lowest of people and are usually the creation of their lies, so they are also same league as liars. They're people who simply just go and copy others or pretend to be something they're not. They compare themselves with others, than try and emulate them creating a mirage of who they are...These people I hate and the lot of them need to go and grow up, being fake is the worst, it just causes trouble for everyone and can be dangerous to the unsuspecting person who believes in these fake images.
Morons, well they're morons, people who are just uneducated, misunderstood idiots who have nothing better to do than just continue their journey into idiocy and ignorance. These are people who will not learn or seek fact and truth, they are people who sit there, claim they're superiority through false knowledge or false beliefs and upon being shown truth or fact, reject it and continue to claim their selves as superior. A moron simply put is an ignorant, idiotic and uneducated person, who cannot understand fact from fiction nor learn it.
That all said and done I'd just like to end with the fact that Leah Dizon & Misa Campo are HOT! HAHA XD
If they're fake...well I could not give a hell because they are good enough already as a fantasy, reality would make them all the better haha =D
BG I made =)
Saturday, November 28, 2009
_|_ Censorship...We Don't Need It _|_
Question.
Well... censorship...do we need it?
a) Yes
b) No
c) Huh?? What's that??
For those that chose 'a' they should die, and as for those that chose 'c' well go look up the word and come back and re answer because than none of this post will make sense to you...Anyway we DON'T need censorship, but not only that, we also DON'T want it... The only people that want censorship are old farts who sit there complaining about how their children are being introduced to violence, sex, drugs, and controversy without even doing something about it themselves, so they just decide to blame something and hope the responsibility will go away...
Lets start on the main topic...the internet. For those who go to school, you'll realise how boring class is when the internet is filtered. So than imagine that even after school... YOUR NET IS BEING FILTERED BY SOMEONE ELSE... how fucked up is that? what business does anyone else have with:
a) your privacy
b) your business
and
c) your internet...
If we were to get technical into an extreme view... the internet should be free as it is like a library...to use the libraries books is free of charge, to use this information and learn it is for free...but the internet is like a HUMUNGOUS library of information...but this is off topic. Not only this but this filter not only blocks and blacklists certain sites...it'll slow down the internet by OVER 80% of it's potential speed. Australia's net is slow enough as it fucking is, to have a garbage filter and slower net...why? Onto the next point, the government to implement this UNWANTED filter, he will be charging the tax payers (I'm not one but the point being) the people who don't want to pay for this have to despite they don't want it...I know I don't like paying for things I don't like.
Anyway the point is if the internet gets censored you can imagine having fun on google looking up english textbooks and maths homework or crummy board of studies forums...and I can't even do that since I don't need that stuff anymore...finished from school.
Now onto the next matter, video games. In all honesty can you say video games need censoring? And if so why? Why is it a movie filled with sex, drugs, extreme gore and violence is allowed and yet a video game with not even more than 1 of the 3 things mentioned is banned immediately or forced editing if it is to be permitted. Don't give me the whole bullshit "oh but your the one acting out the stuff in a game" ... what so if I steal a car in GTA am I gonna go and steal a car in real life when I need to get to the store? It's stupid...and the man I wish great misfortune for his life is a man called Jack Thompson... A Motherfucking old fart who thinks video games are the cause of teenage violence...pathetic with a capital FUCK YOU Jack Thompson... I will not argue my point...let this video prove everything.
Anyway if you saw Facebook... I ranted about this... so this is it vented out...bit too late but yeah have a bit more left in me =P
PS. Sorry bout the video...blog doesn't let it load properly -.- ... so just download it in the top of the video box or just search the title "Penn & Teller : Bullshit + Video Games"
Well... censorship...do we need it?
a) Yes
b) No
c) Huh?? What's that??
For those that chose 'a' they should die, and as for those that chose 'c' well go look up the word and come back and re answer because than none of this post will make sense to you...Anyway we DON'T need censorship, but not only that, we also DON'T want it... The only people that want censorship are old farts who sit there complaining about how their children are being introduced to violence, sex, drugs, and controversy without even doing something about it themselves, so they just decide to blame something and hope the responsibility will go away...
Lets start on the main topic...the internet. For those who go to school, you'll realise how boring class is when the internet is filtered. So than imagine that even after school... YOUR NET IS BEING FILTERED BY SOMEONE ELSE... how fucked up is that? what business does anyone else have with:
a) your privacy
b) your business
and
c) your internet...
If we were to get technical into an extreme view... the internet should be free as it is like a library...to use the libraries books is free of charge, to use this information and learn it is for free...but the internet is like a HUMUNGOUS library of information...but this is off topic. Not only this but this filter not only blocks and blacklists certain sites...it'll slow down the internet by OVER 80% of it's potential speed. Australia's net is slow enough as it fucking is, to have a garbage filter and slower net...why? Onto the next point, the government to implement this UNWANTED filter, he will be charging the tax payers (I'm not one but the point being) the people who don't want to pay for this have to despite they don't want it...I know I don't like paying for things I don't like.
Anyway the point is if the internet gets censored you can imagine having fun on google looking up english textbooks and maths homework or crummy board of studies forums...and I can't even do that since I don't need that stuff anymore...finished from school.
Now onto the next matter, video games. In all honesty can you say video games need censoring? And if so why? Why is it a movie filled with sex, drugs, extreme gore and violence is allowed and yet a video game with not even more than 1 of the 3 things mentioned is banned immediately or forced editing if it is to be permitted. Don't give me the whole bullshit "oh but your the one acting out the stuff in a game" ... what so if I steal a car in GTA am I gonna go and steal a car in real life when I need to get to the store? It's stupid...and the man I wish great misfortune for his life is a man called Jack Thompson... A Motherfucking old fart who thinks video games are the cause of teenage violence...pathetic with a capital FUCK YOU Jack Thompson... I will not argue my point...let this video prove everything.
Anyway if you saw Facebook... I ranted about this... so this is it vented out...bit too late but yeah have a bit more left in me =P
PS. Sorry bout the video...blog doesn't let it load properly -.- ... so just download it in the top of the video box or just search the title "Penn & Teller : Bullshit + Video Games"
Thursday, November 12, 2009
::|?|:: The Internet....What Would We Do Without It ::|?|::
Now here's a thought, what we do without it? Well live better for one, actually nope, we'd live healthier and more fit but less convenient. Like I noticed when I was watching TV that I brought my laptop into the room just to check the usual routine, Facebook, E-mail, MSN, PSP/PS3 news, illegal download sites for stuff like games and crap =P
I really can't go without the internet, and I'm sure everyone in the world can't live without the internet (the Amish don't count they're just scared of the porn sites =P that's why they don't use the net XD) and well frankly it's gonna get worse. Like a drug like caffeine the more it's relied on, the more dependent we become of it, and at times when we don't have a supply we go nuts and cease to operate normally, we're lost. I once went 1 day with my net not working and I went spastic...I was wondering the house lost, my computer was pointless.
But than there's the upside, like free communication with friends, not that fukken rip off shit phones charge you, a 5 hour long convo in MSN costs you $0, whereas have the same convo over the phone or text messaging...well u might as well have used that money to buy a new phone. Plus online communities, they're helpful at times and at others sad to watch people bash and abuse people who are 1000's of miles away from each other making empty threats...it's pathetic but yeah what can you do, internet allows this =P
Anyway I'll keep this short, the internet is the most valued thing in our world, without it we'd really be lost or at least slower than we are =P
Just look at this video, shows you what our world is heading for, now I definitely can't wait for our world to become this advanced =)
I really can't go without the internet, and I'm sure everyone in the world can't live without the internet (the Amish don't count they're just scared of the porn sites =P that's why they don't use the net XD) and well frankly it's gonna get worse. Like a drug like caffeine the more it's relied on, the more dependent we become of it, and at times when we don't have a supply we go nuts and cease to operate normally, we're lost. I once went 1 day with my net not working and I went spastic...I was wondering the house lost, my computer was pointless.
But than there's the upside, like free communication with friends, not that fukken rip off shit phones charge you, a 5 hour long convo in MSN costs you $0, whereas have the same convo over the phone or text messaging...well u might as well have used that money to buy a new phone. Plus online communities, they're helpful at times and at others sad to watch people bash and abuse people who are 1000's of miles away from each other making empty threats...it's pathetic but yeah what can you do, internet allows this =P
Anyway I'll keep this short, the internet is the most valued thing in our world, without it we'd really be lost or at least slower than we are =P
Just look at this video, shows you what our world is heading for, now I definitely can't wait for our world to become this advanced =)
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
|__| I Bid You Adieu HSC |__|
At around 11:30 AM Tuesday, November 3rd 2009 I, Mouhamad Abdallah finally finished my last HSC exam, Modern History, and well it feels sooooo GREAT!!
I no more have the constant lingering thought of having to do a HSC exam anymore, it is abolished from my life, never to return again. I feel ecstatic, magnificent, brilliant, awesome, epic awesome, i feel sooooooooo hektik now that I don't know how to react to this feeling :)
I celebrated this achievement with the complete massacre of a horde of Nazi Zombies and I was a Nazi myself haha the irony of having to kill my own brethren =P
It was soo much fun =)
And now I have all this free time, soo much free time I'm lost with what to do with it. I might start part-time work or I might just bludge it till february when TAFE starts. Either way I'm celebrating this achievement with some blitzing of myself haha, if ya know what I mean with the green ^_^ haha
I no more have the constant lingering thought of having to do a HSC exam anymore, it is abolished from my life, never to return again. I feel ecstatic, magnificent, brilliant, awesome, epic awesome, i feel sooooooooo hektik now that I don't know how to react to this feeling :)
I celebrated this achievement with the complete massacre of a horde of Nazi Zombies and I was a Nazi myself haha the irony of having to kill my own brethren =P
It was soo much fun =)
And now I have all this free time, soo much free time I'm lost with what to do with it. I might start part-time work or I might just bludge it till february when TAFE starts. Either way I'm celebrating this achievement with some blitzing of myself haha, if ya know what I mean with the green ^_^ haha
Monday, November 2, 2009
[?] Honesty & Questionability [?]
Now everyone values honesty and in fact everyone wants it. However there is a cruel fact to this, no one in spite of wanting honesty and hating having being lied to is honest, or completely honest anyway. I myself prefer to be honest at all times that I can but there are times I admit I have to lie or prefer to shroud the truth in a sheet of lies, because it makes things easier to handle. This isn't something I'm proud to admit but it's the truth, and the truth is something honesty is based on, the truth and for me to be honest I must admit to my own dishonesty, haha twisted irony but yeah it's the truth :P
In all this, honesty is always the best way to go because it removes regret, that constant voice shouting "what if?" in the back of your head it does get irritating to carry that voice around for a long time. Honesty remains the best because even when questionable it removes doubt. There are occasions where honesty is never the first thing practiced but that is to test ones trust, to see if the person is trustworthy enough to obtain the truth. I for one know a lot of instances where honesty and trustworthyness are tested and these are tested via question-ability.
To be questioned doesn't hurt, it reveals that there is a sign of interest and that there is mystery behind you yet to be discovered, however it isn't always nice to be questioned all the time, like especially when you're telling the truth. When you're telling the truth you're removing the chance for the truth to be discovered by other means and therefore eliminating doubt about your trustworthiness, but if you're lieing and they find out, well you've made a fuck up. But just because someone lied doesn't mean all bad, question the reason behind the lie, a lot of the times it's for a very valid reason or better yet a wonderful reason. Now I'm not saying lieing is good, I'm saying if they had to resort to it there's a reason behind it than.
Classic example is when someone is attracted to another person, they play a game to test them, assessing their trust, honesty, and overall question-ability to see if they can be with them. If they lie to them it's because they might like them and are shy, or be hurtful in spite of them wanting the opposite. But there is a better route, honesty and if you are honest than it removes the possibility of them being hurt by your display of dishonesty or them misunderstanding the reason behind your lie or lies if there's more than one. Which is the cause of some Relationship mishaps.
Anyway to be honest we all have to destroy that wall of questionability or find the door that lets us through towards the honesty and trust, and with that I give you the reason why I made this post, the theme inspired this picture I made, enjoy :)
In all this, honesty is always the best way to go because it removes regret, that constant voice shouting "what if?" in the back of your head it does get irritating to carry that voice around for a long time. Honesty remains the best because even when questionable it removes doubt. There are occasions where honesty is never the first thing practiced but that is to test ones trust, to see if the person is trustworthy enough to obtain the truth. I for one know a lot of instances where honesty and trustworthyness are tested and these are tested via question-ability.
To be questioned doesn't hurt, it reveals that there is a sign of interest and that there is mystery behind you yet to be discovered, however it isn't always nice to be questioned all the time, like especially when you're telling the truth. When you're telling the truth you're removing the chance for the truth to be discovered by other means and therefore eliminating doubt about your trustworthiness, but if you're lieing and they find out, well you've made a fuck up. But just because someone lied doesn't mean all bad, question the reason behind the lie, a lot of the times it's for a very valid reason or better yet a wonderful reason. Now I'm not saying lieing is good, I'm saying if they had to resort to it there's a reason behind it than.
Classic example is when someone is attracted to another person, they play a game to test them, assessing their trust, honesty, and overall question-ability to see if they can be with them. If they lie to them it's because they might like them and are shy, or be hurtful in spite of them wanting the opposite. But there is a better route, honesty and if you are honest than it removes the possibility of them being hurt by your display of dishonesty or them misunderstanding the reason behind your lie or lies if there's more than one. Which is the cause of some Relationship mishaps.
Anyway to be honest we all have to destroy that wall of questionability or find the door that lets us through towards the honesty and trust, and with that I give you the reason why I made this post, the theme inspired this picture I made, enjoy :)
Sunday, November 1, 2009
/!\ Appreciation & Worth /!\
Well now this is a topic I love discussing because I believe that I can argue this so well and thoroughly. This is due to the fact I have gone through this SOO much, my life was a lonely mess of depreciation, me constantly doubting my worth in this world, constantly questioning how much value I had and even to the point I'd even start demeaning myself, i was a pessimistic dumb ass ... this wasn't long ago, but I consider it long, from basically ever since my high school life I've had issues with this every now and than it coming and going. I've overcome it but now it comes back every now and than, when you have those occasions, you feel you're being used, you're being treated like a spare tire?? Yes theres that side of depreciation and there's the worthlessness you feel when you're being doubted, demeaned, or degraded or misunderstood....a lot of shit can relate to feeling worthless and when you're thinking deep and depressed, stupid stuff can make you feel worthless.
But when I was a kid all that would upset me was my incompetence and ignorance towards the way my family treated me, I used to think they were bad to me and that i deserved better treatment. Well after a little growing up little things like your dad saying no to you aren't a big deal anymore. However because that goes bigger things come in to start this up again. Do you know how hard it is to comfort people?? It's not hard to listen, everyone has the power to listen, and if you've got experience and wisdom on your side, advice and help come into this comfort, but you want to know the hard thing about it?? Will you go unappreciated? That is a dangerous concept, because it can hurt you a lot, to mean nothing but good and with all intentions being good while helping someone you get it slammed back at you to say as if you're not worthy of helping them or that you're too weak for their need.
Sometimes that's not the case but usually that's what gets me, time after time I've helped people and than something comes along to destroy this or something leads me to become phased out so than I'm left thinking to myself, why did I try in the first place?
It's not always like that, a lot of the times with the help I give I make new friends or I strengthen the already existing ones so it helps me not think about depressing things such as depreciation and worthlessness... Meh I hate this time of my life at the moment, nothing seems to be going right and my past depression keeps creeping back to me, I can't do anything right and well I've been doing a lot of stupid stuff lately. I even managed to throw another relationship into the furnace of failure, or at least almost if it isn't already there =( that's another friendship I might not get back and for what, letting my thoughts get the best of me...I usually preach to people I help or motivate think of yourself first, yet with helping others that cannot be the case, and if I try that once it sabotages any relationship you have. Not only that but I can't follow my own advice on anything, being me I find ways to doubt myself, I think my way through any advice I give myself. I really wish I had a hand to pull me out of my fucked up mind right now, I need a distraction, or better yet some help for myself of my own =(
.....I'm stopping this post here because with my pessimistic thinking at the moment I can't find the positives of this topic at all to mention. It was the satisfaction of helping others, it was the thought of knowing I've helped them solve their problems, but at this time I really can't see it as being a valid reason. I wish I could right all the mistakes I've made before, or even current ones but nothing is ever that simple now is it?
But when I was a kid all that would upset me was my incompetence and ignorance towards the way my family treated me, I used to think they were bad to me and that i deserved better treatment. Well after a little growing up little things like your dad saying no to you aren't a big deal anymore. However because that goes bigger things come in to start this up again. Do you know how hard it is to comfort people?? It's not hard to listen, everyone has the power to listen, and if you've got experience and wisdom on your side, advice and help come into this comfort, but you want to know the hard thing about it?? Will you go unappreciated? That is a dangerous concept, because it can hurt you a lot, to mean nothing but good and with all intentions being good while helping someone you get it slammed back at you to say as if you're not worthy of helping them or that you're too weak for their need.
Sometimes that's not the case but usually that's what gets me, time after time I've helped people and than something comes along to destroy this or something leads me to become phased out so than I'm left thinking to myself, why did I try in the first place?
It's not always like that, a lot of the times with the help I give I make new friends or I strengthen the already existing ones so it helps me not think about depressing things such as depreciation and worthlessness... Meh I hate this time of my life at the moment, nothing seems to be going right and my past depression keeps creeping back to me, I can't do anything right and well I've been doing a lot of stupid stuff lately. I even managed to throw another relationship into the furnace of failure, or at least almost if it isn't already there =( that's another friendship I might not get back and for what, letting my thoughts get the best of me...I usually preach to people I help or motivate think of yourself first, yet with helping others that cannot be the case, and if I try that once it sabotages any relationship you have. Not only that but I can't follow my own advice on anything, being me I find ways to doubt myself, I think my way through any advice I give myself. I really wish I had a hand to pull me out of my fucked up mind right now, I need a distraction, or better yet some help for myself of my own =(
.....I'm stopping this post here because with my pessimistic thinking at the moment I can't find the positives of this topic at all to mention. It was the satisfaction of helping others, it was the thought of knowing I've helped them solve their problems, but at this time I really can't see it as being a valid reason. I wish I could right all the mistakes I've made before, or even current ones but nothing is ever that simple now is it?
Saturday, October 31, 2009
|_--_ At A Mental Stalemate _--_|
Well after a depressing Thursday, screwed Friday, and a boring Saturday, I don't know where I'm heading...Mentally I'm really not depressed it's just this void, like this hole and what I have to fill it with is unknown to me, whether its just emptiness caused by boredom or it's an emptiness caused by my heart...
I prefer to think of it as boredom, mainly because ever since I gave back Call Of Duty World At War back I've had nothing to look forward to turning my PS3 on anymore....NO MORE NAZI ZOMBIES T_T stupid nephew he sucks at the game and yet he wants to play it -__- but whatever it's his game so I just have to wait till my copy of the game gets delivered here :( when I had that game I had something to distract me, to entertain me for hours, it was the only time chaos and mayhem in the form of a massacre of German Nazi Undead was available for me to vent frustration or to just to have some pointless fun. But I managed before I had Nazi Zombies and I was happy but I don't know what I used to do to have fun, mostly anything I try now is boring me instantly. So than there's the other side, am I lonely??
I dunno really, I don't hate being single, it honestly is hassle free but than again I do miss knowing that there's someone out there caring for me and who thinks about me day in and day out. Despite that I don't really think I could find a relationship now, nearly all girls are stupid, ignorant, dumb, blonde, or too thickheaded for them to just be mature. Immaturity I can handle if it's absent, if there's enough incentive for me to continue the relationship, but dishonesty is the main thing I can't handle now, it's just not something I can handle, I'm a truth person, hate lies. I'm pretty sure I'll be able to manage single, but I never look at it as single, I look at it as 'open' to everyone haha =P less ropes the better but lately haven't been exploiting that luxury mainly because of HSC :( stupid school always brings me down. Besides if I was to get into a relationship couldn't be with just anyone, got someone in mind but it's not gonna happen because too much troubles associated with the thought of it so have to avoid my hearts desire and think this one out, if I can't get this emptiness out than OK i'll give it a shot but until than not gonna ruin things or start dramaz...
However right at this moment I'm kinda calm, just bored like epicly bored to the point I'm walking around my room staring at the ceiling trying to get headspins =P which has caused me to be at a mental stalemate, I'm not depressed but I'm not happy either. Not satisfied but not dissatisfied as well. Well I needa figure myself out in the following week, plus side I have something to look forward to...I BREAK MY 4 MONTH ABSTINENCE OF GREEN =D
Haha hopefully this week I won't be sober and be able to toke up again =)
I prefer to think of it as boredom, mainly because ever since I gave back Call Of Duty World At War back I've had nothing to look forward to turning my PS3 on anymore....NO MORE NAZI ZOMBIES T_T stupid nephew he sucks at the game and yet he wants to play it -__- but whatever it's his game so I just have to wait till my copy of the game gets delivered here :( when I had that game I had something to distract me, to entertain me for hours, it was the only time chaos and mayhem in the form of a massacre of German Nazi Undead was available for me to vent frustration or to just to have some pointless fun. But I managed before I had Nazi Zombies and I was happy but I don't know what I used to do to have fun, mostly anything I try now is boring me instantly. So than there's the other side, am I lonely??
I dunno really, I don't hate being single, it honestly is hassle free but than again I do miss knowing that there's someone out there caring for me and who thinks about me day in and day out. Despite that I don't really think I could find a relationship now, nearly all girls are stupid, ignorant, dumb, blonde, or too thickheaded for them to just be mature. Immaturity I can handle if it's absent, if there's enough incentive for me to continue the relationship, but dishonesty is the main thing I can't handle now, it's just not something I can handle, I'm a truth person, hate lies. I'm pretty sure I'll be able to manage single, but I never look at it as single, I look at it as 'open' to everyone haha =P less ropes the better but lately haven't been exploiting that luxury mainly because of HSC :( stupid school always brings me down. Besides if I was to get into a relationship couldn't be with just anyone, got someone in mind but it's not gonna happen because too much troubles associated with the thought of it so have to avoid my hearts desire and think this one out, if I can't get this emptiness out than OK i'll give it a shot but until than not gonna ruin things or start dramaz...
However right at this moment I'm kinda calm, just bored like epicly bored to the point I'm walking around my room staring at the ceiling trying to get headspins =P which has caused me to be at a mental stalemate, I'm not depressed but I'm not happy either. Not satisfied but not dissatisfied as well. Well I needa figure myself out in the following week, plus side I have something to look forward to...I BREAK MY 4 MONTH ABSTINENCE OF GREEN =D
Haha hopefully this week I won't be sober and be able to toke up again =)
Thursday, October 29, 2009
**#** Confused Inspiration **#**
Well after a night of nightmares I woke up feeling odd. Not like an itchy type of odd, more like I had to let something out, creativity was bouncing around my mind...
Now as for the creativity, what inspired the image puzzles me. I think it's main theme is fear but really I have no clue what it's deeper purpose is. I stared at it for a while and fear, journeys, an unending road of troubles is all I can think of. The root of it's inspiration I guess is fear but really I can't agree with this completely... Sure the unknown is a scary thing but I don't completely believe it is scary, I rather look at it as something to venture into, to go ahead and experience because fearing the unknown and not venturing forward will never allow you to experience new and better things. Fear isn't something that should control us, only power us forward because you should not let fear control you, it will slow you down or bring you to a stop, we should not even fear fear itself we should simply not allow it to enter our minds. Sure that seems impossible but it can be done, when fear enters our minds it is extremely hard to overcome it but once done you become extremely exhilarated and hyped up.
Well whatever your take on this image is its your call, I honestly can't grasp exactly how this image was inspired, I'm usually a positive person this comes to me with fear of returning to my anxiety and depressing self...Hopefully that day never returns again...I won't let it return... I enjoy my happiness and dread the days I used to wallow in fear, anger, depression, and upsetting moments, but if they return I will not know what to do, I can not even begin to think of those days again it is just simply not something I wish to do, it will hurt me way too much all those days I used to bottle up my depression...Never again, so far for around a year I've been happy and depression hasn't struck me so I will keep it up. Nothing will throw my mentality in the trash, I will persevere as I have continued to persevere any type of problems and depression risks....whatever I will manage as I have always have.
Now as for the creativity, what inspired the image puzzles me. I think it's main theme is fear but really I have no clue what it's deeper purpose is. I stared at it for a while and fear, journeys, an unending road of troubles is all I can think of. The root of it's inspiration I guess is fear but really I can't agree with this completely... Sure the unknown is a scary thing but I don't completely believe it is scary, I rather look at it as something to venture into, to go ahead and experience because fearing the unknown and not venturing forward will never allow you to experience new and better things. Fear isn't something that should control us, only power us forward because you should not let fear control you, it will slow you down or bring you to a stop, we should not even fear fear itself we should simply not allow it to enter our minds. Sure that seems impossible but it can be done, when fear enters our minds it is extremely hard to overcome it but once done you become extremely exhilarated and hyped up.
Well whatever your take on this image is its your call, I honestly can't grasp exactly how this image was inspired, I'm usually a positive person this comes to me with fear of returning to my anxiety and depressing self...Hopefully that day never returns again...I won't let it return... I enjoy my happiness and dread the days I used to wallow in fear, anger, depression, and upsetting moments, but if they return I will not know what to do, I can not even begin to think of those days again it is just simply not something I wish to do, it will hurt me way too much all those days I used to bottle up my depression...Never again, so far for around a year I've been happy and depression hasn't struck me so I will keep it up. Nothing will throw my mentality in the trash, I will persevere as I have continued to persevere any type of problems and depression risks....whatever I will manage as I have always have.
Monday, October 26, 2009
House Iz Da Shiz =D
Before I start I wanna say I hate FACEBOOK because my account on it is temporarily FUKCED and is constantly not working with problems ranging from inability to log in, to my friends = 0 and everyones profile being restricted from me...so till it's fixed i as of now have a vendetta against facebook -___-
but anywayz onto what i wanna talk about :)
Ok I have to say that a lot of music is awesome but there's the one defining type of music that is simply the peniccle of awesomosity and it is HOUSE. I don't care what anyone tries to convince me of, house is the BEST type of music being the fact that:
a) it is fast, happy, and hyperactive which can influence you to wake up and not be a dull wreck XD
b) it is played in clubs, and arent clubs where a lot of people go to just have fun?? That's because it puts the fun in da 'house' :P (lame joke i know haha)
c) come on you honestly don't like to dance?? tell me you don't like dancing and your simply a retard end of discussion =D
Sure RnB and Hip Hop have their place, and in fact at times they're the only thing going around but it cannot replace House, house is always in and always fun, I'd prefer house over any song any day because house makes me happy, makes me dance, makes me move, and makes me more perky and less gloomy thinking of past love experiences XD
I even listen to house at times when im trying to pick up gurlz haha because it hypes me up and makes me lose my nerves so I'm more confident and perky instead of pathetic, jittery and stuttering after every second word :P
Also helped me psyche up for exams, others are full cramming and worrying their heads off that they need to remember content, while I'm happily blowing my ears out with house music to boost my confidence which in the end is what everyone needs going into the HSC
And so I end this short post with this
HOUSE IS AWESOME THE PEOPLE WHO SAY ITS SHIT OR HATE IT CAN GOTO HELL AND LISTEN TO HIPHOP OR RAP AS MUCH AS THEY WANT WHILE ILL BE IN HEAVEN DANCING AROUND HAPPILY AND HYPERACTIVELY XD
Housexy is dat ;) haha
but anywayz onto what i wanna talk about :)
Ok I have to say that a lot of music is awesome but there's the one defining type of music that is simply the peniccle of awesomosity and it is HOUSE. I don't care what anyone tries to convince me of, house is the BEST type of music being the fact that:
a) it is fast, happy, and hyperactive which can influence you to wake up and not be a dull wreck XD
b) it is played in clubs, and arent clubs where a lot of people go to just have fun?? That's because it puts the fun in da 'house' :P (lame joke i know haha)
c) come on you honestly don't like to dance?? tell me you don't like dancing and your simply a retard end of discussion =D
Sure RnB and Hip Hop have their place, and in fact at times they're the only thing going around but it cannot replace House, house is always in and always fun, I'd prefer house over any song any day because house makes me happy, makes me dance, makes me move, and makes me more perky and less gloomy thinking of past love experiences XD
I even listen to house at times when im trying to pick up gurlz haha because it hypes me up and makes me lose my nerves so I'm more confident and perky instead of pathetic, jittery and stuttering after every second word :P
Also helped me psyche up for exams, others are full cramming and worrying their heads off that they need to remember content, while I'm happily blowing my ears out with house music to boost my confidence which in the end is what everyone needs going into the HSC
And so I end this short post with this
HOUSE IS AWESOME THE PEOPLE WHO SAY ITS SHIT OR HATE IT CAN GOTO HELL AND LISTEN TO HIPHOP OR RAP AS MUCH AS THEY WANT WHILE ILL BE IN HEAVEN DANCING AROUND HAPPILY AND HYPERACTIVELY XD
Housexy is dat ;) haha
|-| A Time Of Serenity =) |-|
Well It's been quite a while since I wrote in my blog, but that's because there's been a lot going on =)
To start, HSC the end of the road for school, the final step to ending your student years as a high school student and with all this hype and tension along with the stress that is associated with the HSC according to reputation would provide reason enough for someone to drop their current happenings to focus on it...reason I say reputation of the HSC is because in reality the HSC is nothing. If you're prepared and can rely on your memory enough to remember all the stuff you've done in class, well you'll be set for it, there's no trick to it, in fact the yearly exams were a lot more tougher than the HSC exams. So far I've done 5 of my 6 exams, and well all of them were nothing like the hype behind them intended them to be, they were quite a wonderful surprise actually =)
Other than the HSC I've also been trying to get my life after school organised, stuff like TAFE, resumes for work, budget planning, stuff like that to prepare myself for some heavy spending that I'll be doing sometime in the not so long future. TAFE I've sent in my application but whether or not I'm in is another thing...I have to wait till December to find out...guess they check your HSC results before final determination so here's hoping my results aren't that bad =P
As for work, part time work to save up for some things, like a car, TAFE supplies like text books and a new computer for my new career as a Games Developer starting February 2010 =D well that's if im accepted enrollment into TAFE but I'm positive I'll get in :)
Well as for now, I'm in a time of serenity, I've never felt more relaxed, calm, and tranquil before, I'm genuinely happy with all this time now available to me, I can worry less about waking up 8 am in the morning to go to school, or sleeping 10-11 pm at night to wake up the next day, now is my time for reward with the reward being time itself :) sadly it means less time with my friends but who says I cant use my newly rewarded time with my friends?? =)
I really look forward to my future, I can't wait for my life to begin because school is just the end of the creation of our foundations for life, now we begin building the structure of our life, enjoying the times we have while building our life and the things that roll our way, whether they are good or bad, I honestly look forward to them because the routine of my life has changed which is what I've been wishing for for a long long time =)
To start, HSC the end of the road for school, the final step to ending your student years as a high school student and with all this hype and tension along with the stress that is associated with the HSC according to reputation would provide reason enough for someone to drop their current happenings to focus on it...reason I say reputation of the HSC is because in reality the HSC is nothing. If you're prepared and can rely on your memory enough to remember all the stuff you've done in class, well you'll be set for it, there's no trick to it, in fact the yearly exams were a lot more tougher than the HSC exams. So far I've done 5 of my 6 exams, and well all of them were nothing like the hype behind them intended them to be, they were quite a wonderful surprise actually =)
Other than the HSC I've also been trying to get my life after school organised, stuff like TAFE, resumes for work, budget planning, stuff like that to prepare myself for some heavy spending that I'll be doing sometime in the not so long future. TAFE I've sent in my application but whether or not I'm in is another thing...I have to wait till December to find out...guess they check your HSC results before final determination so here's hoping my results aren't that bad =P
As for work, part time work to save up for some things, like a car, TAFE supplies like text books and a new computer for my new career as a Games Developer starting February 2010 =D well that's if im accepted enrollment into TAFE but I'm positive I'll get in :)
Well as for now, I'm in a time of serenity, I've never felt more relaxed, calm, and tranquil before, I'm genuinely happy with all this time now available to me, I can worry less about waking up 8 am in the morning to go to school, or sleeping 10-11 pm at night to wake up the next day, now is my time for reward with the reward being time itself :) sadly it means less time with my friends but who says I cant use my newly rewarded time with my friends?? =)
I really look forward to my future, I can't wait for my life to begin because school is just the end of the creation of our foundations for life, now we begin building the structure of our life, enjoying the times we have while building our life and the things that roll our way, whether they are good or bad, I honestly look forward to them because the routine of my life has changed which is what I've been wishing for for a long long time =)
Thursday, October 8, 2009
/!\ Shooteroids Is Released /!\ =D
It's 6:40 A.M now and well I haven't slept all night, want to know why?? BECAUSE I FINISHED MY GAME FINALLY OMG!!!!!!
Do you know how irritating it is to say "OK I've finished," you go through the game to find it's missing something or theres a bug...happened so many times I got fed up with it and decided to keep my mind focused and pulled an all nighter... Development time took approximately 4 days, give or take 1 day, and well for a game thats not flash based, not written in Java, and can be compiled to run on a 360 =D thats a very fast release =)
Compared to the first game I've made MekWarz which took around 2-3 weeks to make, I say just finishing this damn thing is rewarding enough haha =)
OK if I continue ranting I'll get angry because I'm sleep deprived now...Here's the details:
The Game
Developer: MoeHammered (AKA Mouhamad Abdallah)
Title: Shooteroids
Players: 1
Gameplay: Top View Shooter
Requirements
CPU: 1.0GHz throttled Core Duo (OR Pentium 4 1.8GHz is more than enough)
NOTE: SOUND ON IN TIMES OF SWARM CAN CAUSE GAME TO LAG
GFX: Integrated Graphics Card 32 - 64MB (Intel GMA 950 is HEAPS enough)
RAM: 64MB MINIMUM...128MB Recommended...256MB your safe no worries =P
NOTE: GAMES CREATED IN XNA HAVE AN ODD MEMORY BEHAVIOUR...GRADUALLY MEMORY USAGE GROWS AS CONTENT IS LOADED...I'VE DONE WHAT I CAN TO MIMIMISE THIS, WITH ME PEAK MEMORY USAGE AFTER 10 MINS OF GAMEPLAY REACHED AROUND 64MB RAM IT SHOULD NOT BOTHER YOUR MEMORY ANYMORE THAN THAT...IN CASE OF MEMORY LEAK, MEMORY LEAK CAN BE SOLVED BY REOPENING THE GAME BUT LIKE I SAID I'VE MINIMISED THIS TO PEAK AT 64MB MEMORY...SHOULDN'T HAVE TO WORRY BUT THE WARNING HAS TO BE THERE SO YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO IN CASE =P
OS: Vista/7/XP with .NET Framework 3.5 & XNA Redistribution 3.1 << == Don't worry if you don't have one of the 2, it automatically retrieves the files for you and installs them =)
The RAM thing is due to the sound...see when you turn classic gameplay off the asteroids are attracted to you, and at times you can have over 12 or more asteroids playing sound files continuously right ontop of each other causing the memory to repeat itself...just turn sound off if your not going to play classic gameplay, trust me it'll save you a headache of noise and you won't risk lag when you've got 30 asteroids pinned on your ship...but if you can manage to not get hit go ahead, leave sound on...
Resources
Graphics Development: Adobe Photoshop CS3 Extended =)
Sound Authoring: XACT & Free sound resources
Coding IDE: Microsoft Visual C# Express Edition + XNA Game Studio 3.0/3.1
Sprite Engine: AIE - Academy of Interactive Entertainment =D
Credits
Sprite Design: Mouhamad Abdallah
Sprite Creation: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Design: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Programming: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Sound Design/Authoring: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Background Designs: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Logo Design: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Font Design: - Mouhamad Abdallah
HAHA ITS ALL ME =P
Well that's it I guess, when you download the file, extract the contents from the ZIP into a folder, run the setup and that's all folks :)
And Finally I present you, - Shooteroids - ENJOY! =)
Copyright 2009 of Moehammered.A.K.A.Ashcayz ;)
Do you know how irritating it is to say "OK I've finished," you go through the game to find it's missing something or theres a bug...happened so many times I got fed up with it and decided to keep my mind focused and pulled an all nighter... Development time took approximately 4 days, give or take 1 day, and well for a game thats not flash based, not written in Java, and can be compiled to run on a 360 =D thats a very fast release =)
Compared to the first game I've made MekWarz which took around 2-3 weeks to make, I say just finishing this damn thing is rewarding enough haha =)
OK if I continue ranting I'll get angry because I'm sleep deprived now...Here's the details:
The Game
Developer: MoeHammered (AKA Mouhamad Abdallah)
Title: Shooteroids
Players: 1
Gameplay: Top View Shooter
Requirements
CPU: 1.0GHz throttled Core Duo (OR Pentium 4 1.8GHz is more than enough)
NOTE: SOUND ON IN TIMES OF SWARM CAN CAUSE GAME TO LAG
GFX: Integrated Graphics Card 32 - 64MB (Intel GMA 950 is HEAPS enough)
RAM: 64MB MINIMUM...128MB Recommended...256MB your safe no worries =P
NOTE: GAMES CREATED IN XNA HAVE AN ODD MEMORY BEHAVIOUR...GRADUALLY MEMORY USAGE GROWS AS CONTENT IS LOADED...I'VE DONE WHAT I CAN TO MIMIMISE THIS, WITH ME PEAK MEMORY USAGE AFTER 10 MINS OF GAMEPLAY REACHED AROUND 64MB RAM IT SHOULD NOT BOTHER YOUR MEMORY ANYMORE THAN THAT...IN CASE OF MEMORY LEAK, MEMORY LEAK CAN BE SOLVED BY REOPENING THE GAME BUT LIKE I SAID I'VE MINIMISED THIS TO PEAK AT 64MB MEMORY...SHOULDN'T HAVE TO WORRY BUT THE WARNING HAS TO BE THERE SO YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO IN CASE =P
OS: Vista/7/XP with .NET Framework 3.5 & XNA Redistribution 3.1 << == Don't worry if you don't have one of the 2, it automatically retrieves the files for you and installs them =)
The RAM thing is due to the sound...see when you turn classic gameplay off the asteroids are attracted to you, and at times you can have over 12 or more asteroids playing sound files continuously right ontop of each other causing the memory to repeat itself...just turn sound off if your not going to play classic gameplay, trust me it'll save you a headache of noise and you won't risk lag when you've got 30 asteroids pinned on your ship...but if you can manage to not get hit go ahead, leave sound on...
Resources
Graphics Development: Adobe Photoshop CS3 Extended =)
Sound Authoring: XACT & Free sound resources
Coding IDE: Microsoft Visual C# Express Edition + XNA Game Studio 3.0/3.1
Sprite Engine: AIE - Academy of Interactive Entertainment =D
Credits
Sprite Design: Mouhamad Abdallah
Sprite Creation: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Design: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Programming: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Sound Design/Authoring: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Background Designs: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Logo Design: - Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Font Design: - Mouhamad Abdallah
HAHA ITS ALL ME =P
Well that's it I guess, when you download the file, extract the contents from the ZIP into a folder, run the setup and that's all folks :)
And Finally I present you, - Shooteroids - ENJOY! =)
Copyright 2009 of Moehammered.A.K.A.Ashcayz ;)
Monday, October 5, 2009
!!My First Polished Game I've Made =)!!
Well I was going through my old computer files and I found my Game Project Me & Albert had done for AIE as our final game development project. It's written in C# with the aid of a .dll file constructed at AIE which is like a sprite engine, helps you create sprites in a more simple manner, and quicker too :)
It's called Mek Warz and we had approximately 4 weeks to develop it, first week was planning, the next 3 weeks were actual coding and graphics creation. It was a lot of long nights trying to get this thing to work properly as well as juggling the half yearly exam studying...I mean damn it was hard at times, but it was very rewarding :)
Please keep in mind, this is my first 'complete' game as in I had everything the game was planned to have inserted into the game completed. It's a first game so please be nice =P lol
Here's the details:
The Game
Developers: Hammered & A.Z.
Title: Mek Warz
Players: 2 Only - Use Same Keyboard ( 1 person can play but the 2nd player will just be a dummy...AI was not apart of the assessment requirements, sorry =( )
Gameplay: 2D Platform Shooter/Fighter
Requirements
CPU: Pentium 4 1.8Ghz and anything better than that can run it more than perfect
Controls: A keyboard. Simple
RAM: 128MB RAM minimum (For no lag...but this thing should run on 64MB...but as if anyone will have less than 512MB RAM)
OS: Windows 2000/XP/Vista/7 with .NET Framework 3.5 SP1 <== (if you don't have the framework, it will download the update for you from MS Site)
Graphics Card: Integrated Gfx 64MB at least should run it fine
Resources
Graphics Development: Adobe Photoshop CS3 Extended =)
Sound Authoring: XACT & Free sound resources
Coding IDE: Microsoft Visual C# Express Edition + XNA Game Studio 3.0/3.1
Sprite Engine: AIE - Academy of Interactive Entertainment =D
Credits
Sprite Design - Ananthu Nair, Mouhamad Abdallah, & Albert Zhang
Sprite Creation - Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Design - Albert Zhang & Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Programming - Mouhamad Abdallah & Albert Zhang
Sound Design/Authoring - Mouhamad Abdallah
Background Designs - Mouhamad Abdallah
Logo Design - Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Font Design - Mouhamad Abdallah
Now I have to make a disclaimer otherwise it doesn't count as an 'official' release haha =D
Disclaimer
This game will not hack or attempt to exploit your system. It will not and should not damage your computer. I am not responsible for any damage this game may do to your system. Just install it and enjoy, hopefully you'll like it :)
Well That's it, that's all the official stuff haha now here's the download =)
MekWarz Copyright 2009 of Moehammered.A.K.A.Ashcayz ;) & A.Z.
YAY I ACTUALLY HAVE RELEASED AND PUBLISHED MY OWN GAME HAHA!! =D
It's called Mek Warz and we had approximately 4 weeks to develop it, first week was planning, the next 3 weeks were actual coding and graphics creation. It was a lot of long nights trying to get this thing to work properly as well as juggling the half yearly exam studying...I mean damn it was hard at times, but it was very rewarding :)
Please keep in mind, this is my first 'complete' game as in I had everything the game was planned to have inserted into the game completed. It's a first game so please be nice =P lol
Here's the details:
The Game
Developers: Hammered & A.Z.
Title: Mek Warz
Players: 2 Only - Use Same Keyboard ( 1 person can play but the 2nd player will just be a dummy...AI was not apart of the assessment requirements, sorry =( )
Gameplay: 2D Platform Shooter/Fighter
Requirements
CPU: Pentium 4 1.8Ghz and anything better than that can run it more than perfect
Controls: A keyboard. Simple
RAM: 128MB RAM minimum (For no lag...but this thing should run on 64MB...but as if anyone will have less than 512MB RAM)
OS: Windows 2000/XP/Vista/7 with .NET Framework 3.5 SP1 <== (if you don't have the framework, it will download the update for you from MS Site)
Graphics Card: Integrated Gfx 64MB at least should run it fine
Resources
Graphics Development: Adobe Photoshop CS3 Extended =)
Sound Authoring: XACT & Free sound resources
Coding IDE: Microsoft Visual C# Express Edition + XNA Game Studio 3.0/3.1
Sprite Engine: AIE - Academy of Interactive Entertainment =D
Credits
Sprite Design - Ananthu Nair, Mouhamad Abdallah, & Albert Zhang
Sprite Creation - Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Design - Albert Zhang & Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Programming - Mouhamad Abdallah & Albert Zhang
Sound Design/Authoring - Mouhamad Abdallah
Background Designs - Mouhamad Abdallah
Logo Design - Mouhamad Abdallah
Game Font Design - Mouhamad Abdallah
Now I have to make a disclaimer otherwise it doesn't count as an 'official' release haha =D
Disclaimer
This game will not hack or attempt to exploit your system. It will not and should not damage your computer. I am not responsible for any damage this game may do to your system. Just install it and enjoy, hopefully you'll like it :)
Well That's it, that's all the official stuff haha now here's the download =)
MekWarz Copyright 2009 of Moehammered.A.K.A.Ashcayz ;) & A.Z.
YAY I ACTUALLY HAVE RELEASED AND PUBLISHED MY OWN GAME HAHA!! =D
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Broken Toys
Dis was the story I wrote for the creative writing part of the trial exams for year 12 english, belonging and got 9/15, which is like highest mark I've gotten in english creative writing =D, so thought I'd post it up =]
Broken Toys
There he was, a carefree, happy and joyous child. Running about his room, he was a puppy, one craving excitement and attention. Constantly creating a mess and ruckus to please his needs. This was the tip of the iceburg, the child was yet to be released. Once the noise cluttering box was dragged out, rattling, shaking, and crashing was all that could be heard. As if by an innate instinct, the child would rampage and toss aside all to reach this thing considered to be Pandora's box. Pure euphoria was all that was noticed. The child dug into the box, throwing anything and everything out of it in a reaction to its seal being broken. The sight of his face wasn't the only thing noticeable, the toys themselves gave off a welcoming glow, like the northern star.
Watching the firetruck crash, the animals topple, the lego break apart, all this destruction would be considered a terrible thing, but to the child it was his world of joy. After a complete session of mayhem, another one followed as energetic as the one before. One could not care for what was happening just that the child was expressing his joy, and it was a wonderful atmosphere to witness. The child now started to learn new ways of expressing himself and this was a pleasant sight, even though destruction was the means of expression, no one complained, not anyone, not even the toys. With this it was clear the child had found something he could use to act, feel, and express himself for who he is.
Rain started to trickle down the window, a light stream of tapping. The child carried on in his room, keeping the atmosphere euphoric. Large amounts of noise made by the child overwhelmed the rain, and ensured that happiness would remain...Silence. The sound of the rain showering the house could be heard. An ominous and grief stricken aura surrounded the child. There lay the depressed and dismembered animals alongside their caretaker. The atmosphere now was accompanying the rain, a wailing child began to grieve. Nothing could be done but to empathise with the child, as now he had lost something he was close to. That he felt together with. The child still with his eyes leaking carried the torn animal over to a shoe box and as if to bury it, placed it inside and tucked it underneath his bed. The room was filled with sorrow and the child remained empty.
Now he doesn't feel the same. Everytime upon entry to his room, he feels distressed. Never moving or seeing the creature, he cannot stay in his room for long either, acting as if he were being exiled by his own inner self. However, the child like the broken toy was dismembering the child's only tie with the place where he once felt comfortable and joy.
The child went went to his room, with a troubled look. The child shut the door. Silence and anguish surrounded the door, as if to act as a barrier. Than...noise. Cluttering, banging, crashing, and destruction was heard. The door changed to a welcoming glow of happiness and excitement. Upon entry a rush of euphoria could immediately be felt, and joy was surrounding the child. The child had moved on, but what pushed him forwards was unknown. The shoe box was placed on top of a stool, with the words "Broken Toys" written on it. And there lay the torn creature. The child took notice of my starring and proclaimed "I love my toys. And even if they're broken, I'll always love them and have a place for them to stay and watch me play." With that the creature had the ominous and dark aura removed, freed from the abyss of emptiness and the child finally came back home to his euphoria.
That's the story, hope you enjoyed it =)
Quick Joke - What Do You Do If A Blonde Throws A Grenade At You??
Pull The Pin And Throw It Back XD
Special Thanx Goes 2 Omta 4 Inspiring Me =]
Broken Toys
There he was, a carefree, happy and joyous child. Running about his room, he was a puppy, one craving excitement and attention. Constantly creating a mess and ruckus to please his needs. This was the tip of the iceburg, the child was yet to be released. Once the noise cluttering box was dragged out, rattling, shaking, and crashing was all that could be heard. As if by an innate instinct, the child would rampage and toss aside all to reach this thing considered to be Pandora's box. Pure euphoria was all that was noticed. The child dug into the box, throwing anything and everything out of it in a reaction to its seal being broken. The sight of his face wasn't the only thing noticeable, the toys themselves gave off a welcoming glow, like the northern star.
Watching the firetruck crash, the animals topple, the lego break apart, all this destruction would be considered a terrible thing, but to the child it was his world of joy. After a complete session of mayhem, another one followed as energetic as the one before. One could not care for what was happening just that the child was expressing his joy, and it was a wonderful atmosphere to witness. The child now started to learn new ways of expressing himself and this was a pleasant sight, even though destruction was the means of expression, no one complained, not anyone, not even the toys. With this it was clear the child had found something he could use to act, feel, and express himself for who he is.
Rain started to trickle down the window, a light stream of tapping. The child carried on in his room, keeping the atmosphere euphoric. Large amounts of noise made by the child overwhelmed the rain, and ensured that happiness would remain...Silence. The sound of the rain showering the house could be heard. An ominous and grief stricken aura surrounded the child. There lay the depressed and dismembered animals alongside their caretaker. The atmosphere now was accompanying the rain, a wailing child began to grieve. Nothing could be done but to empathise with the child, as now he had lost something he was close to. That he felt together with. The child still with his eyes leaking carried the torn animal over to a shoe box and as if to bury it, placed it inside and tucked it underneath his bed. The room was filled with sorrow and the child remained empty.
Now he doesn't feel the same. Everytime upon entry to his room, he feels distressed. Never moving or seeing the creature, he cannot stay in his room for long either, acting as if he were being exiled by his own inner self. However, the child like the broken toy was dismembering the child's only tie with the place where he once felt comfortable and joy.
The child went went to his room, with a troubled look. The child shut the door. Silence and anguish surrounded the door, as if to act as a barrier. Than...noise. Cluttering, banging, crashing, and destruction was heard. The door changed to a welcoming glow of happiness and excitement. Upon entry a rush of euphoria could immediately be felt, and joy was surrounding the child. The child had moved on, but what pushed him forwards was unknown. The shoe box was placed on top of a stool, with the words "Broken Toys" written on it. And there lay the torn creature. The child took notice of my starring and proclaimed "I love my toys. And even if they're broken, I'll always love them and have a place for them to stay and watch me play." With that the creature had the ominous and dark aura removed, freed from the abyss of emptiness and the child finally came back home to his euphoria.
That's the story, hope you enjoyed it =)
Quick Joke - What Do You Do If A Blonde Throws A Grenade At You??
Pull The Pin And Throw It Back XD
Special Thanx Goes 2 Omta 4 Inspiring Me =]
Monday, September 28, 2009
My Official To Do List =)
OK I've decided that I need to write down my actual goals and objectives that I want to accomplish, because every day I come home I'm sitting there wondering "WTF did I wanna do again??" or "I need to do something...but what is it?"
So here it is, that way I wont forget it because it'll be on my blog =P
Short-Term
1. Practice Thriller =P
2. Learn Shuffling =)
3. Document Last Year 12 Classes =P
4. Try and Gather Enough Money To Pay Mahmoud Back Lmao XD
5. Practice Driving
6. Finish Dissidia - Final Fantasy :]
7. 'Try' (I use that word loosely) and Study for HSC
8. Hand In TAFE Application Form
9. Hope I'm In Da Course XD
That's all I can remember for my short-term goals, onto long-term =]
Long-Term
1. Finish University Course - Bachelor Of Games Development (2 years)
2. Go Traveling The World =) - Main Stops Are Japan & Amsterdam =D, the rest I'll figure out along the way =P
3. After Traveling For A While, Get My Career Going =)
4. Get Rich =P
5. Look 4 A Hektik Gurl =)
6. Marry Dat Hektik Gurl haha =]
and after that I dunno what I'll do, heck I don't even think that might all happen, but that's what I have in mind to do =)
Oh almost forgot...
The To 'Do' List XD
1. Leah Dizon XD
2. Misa Campo XD
So here it is, that way I wont forget it because it'll be on my blog =P
Short-Term
1. Practice Thriller =P
2. Learn Shuffling =)
3. Document Last Year 12 Classes =P
4. Try and Gather Enough Money To Pay Mahmoud Back Lmao XD
5. Practice Driving
6. Finish Dissidia - Final Fantasy :]
7. 'Try' (I use that word loosely) and Study for HSC
8. Hand In TAFE Application Form
9. Hope I'm In Da Course XD
That's all I can remember for my short-term goals, onto long-term =]
Long-Term
1. Finish University Course - Bachelor Of Games Development (2 years)
2. Go Traveling The World =) - Main Stops Are Japan & Amsterdam =D, the rest I'll figure out along the way =P
3. After Traveling For A While, Get My Career Going =)
4. Get Rich =P
5. Look 4 A Hektik Gurl =)
6. Marry Dat Hektik Gurl haha =]
and after that I dunno what I'll do, heck I don't even think that might all happen, but that's what I have in mind to do =)
Oh almost forgot...
The To 'Do' List XD
1. Leah Dizon XD
2. Misa Campo XD
I think that's about it... XD
Just hope Misa And Leah Aren't ugly when I decide to go traveling XD, fingerz crossed =)
Sunday, September 27, 2009
The Final Turn To The Finish Line That Is School...
Well now that the end of school is here I honestly can't help but remember the fact, 'School's Over Soon' =(
Throughout your school life you say "Man I can't wait to finish school...Bro seriously school is so boring, wish I didn't have to come..." or something along those lines, but when you're in Year 12 and you actually are at the end of your school life, you don't want it to go.
This week is the last week I'll have school, that all of SHS '09 will have school, that every other year 12 in the state that will have school and well it's a big deal. Sure school has it's flaw of being controlled and annoyed by scary and angry teachers, but there's also the awesome time you spend with your friends, the hektik moments you have on the playground, and the all time crackups you have in English =P
I don't want to leave school behind because than it leaves behind the huge amount of time I'd spend with my friends, but I must, and with the end of school begins my life, as everyone else's does :)
So 4 Dayz Of School Left...After Those 4 Dayz I Will No Longer Be A Student In Year 12 & Neither Will My Friends And Peers...But At Least My Life Begins =)
Shout Out To Dat Hektik Gurl In Yr 10 Huiy, gonna miss ya soo soo much =)
Throughout your school life you say "Man I can't wait to finish school...Bro seriously school is so boring, wish I didn't have to come..." or something along those lines, but when you're in Year 12 and you actually are at the end of your school life, you don't want it to go.
This week is the last week I'll have school, that all of SHS '09 will have school, that every other year 12 in the state that will have school and well it's a big deal. Sure school has it's flaw of being controlled and annoyed by scary and angry teachers, but there's also the awesome time you spend with your friends, the hektik moments you have on the playground, and the all time crackups you have in English =P
I don't want to leave school behind because than it leaves behind the huge amount of time I'd spend with my friends, but I must, and with the end of school begins my life, as everyone else's does :)
So 4 Dayz Of School Left...After Those 4 Dayz I Will No Longer Be A Student In Year 12 & Neither Will My Friends And Peers...But At Least My Life Begins =)
Shout Out To Dat Hektik Gurl In Yr 10 Huiy, gonna miss ya soo soo much =)
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Today Was Red Day =)
Well everyone knows how odd it looked today in Sydney...It was red. A dust storm happened in Sydney during the early hours of the morning and continued on until the afternoon, everywhere dust could be seen, and everyone who was outside got a good dose of dirt in their mouth XD
Wow never would've thought this was Sydney unless I was told so...Looks like something straight from a video game, or Mars =P
Wanna see the Harbour Bridge?? Well here's half of it =P
Lucky I wasn't outside during that time, air looks so thick you could lick it =P
Anotha interesting thing, today if you decided you wanted to look up at the sun, it was blue =D
Awesome brake from the usual blinding white light it gives us haha XD
Wow never would've thought this was Sydney unless I was told so...Looks like something straight from a video game, or Mars =P
Wanna see the Harbour Bridge?? Well here's half of it =P
Anotha interesting thing, today if you decided you wanted to look up at the sun, it was blue =D
Awesome brake from the usual blinding white light it gives us haha XD
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
The RTA...
Ok anyone who has gone into an RTA knows what I'm talking about...It's the most shittest environment ever, straight out.
I mean today I went to get my Licence(L'z) and had to take the test, but before the test I just went over my road safety notes just to be safe, and I honestly was amazed at the crowd inside, I mean come on it's packed out, barely find a seat anywhere, and to top it off today there were many mothers whobrang their children with them, toddlers, so all you could here was the joyful and irritating squeeling of children while I was trying not to psych myself out of my calm mood.
Also not to blame the Booth Attendents but honestly can they try and not look depressed?? I was walking past to queue up and looking at all the attendents, they were depressed or bored. If I was in their position I'd probably be acting the same way, mean, have to deal with people that can barely speak a word of english, or have to make a complaint about the waiting when all they wanna do is just get them done and move onto the next person...Anyway the last thing is that I got My L'z =P haha fukin finally =)
Today is a double post since I missed out yesterday, so should be up soon, and it's about the one thing green that isn't mean, Marijuana =O
DUN DUN DUNNN....
(Dramatic Music Plays)
Lol Cya in a bit =P
I mean today I went to get my Licence(L'z) and had to take the test, but before the test I just went over my road safety notes just to be safe, and I honestly was amazed at the crowd inside, I mean come on it's packed out, barely find a seat anywhere, and to top it off today there were many mothers whobrang their children with them, toddlers, so all you could here was the joyful and irritating squeeling of children while I was trying not to psych myself out of my calm mood.
Also not to blame the Booth Attendents but honestly can they try and not look depressed?? I was walking past to queue up and looking at all the attendents, they were depressed or bored. If I was in their position I'd probably be acting the same way, mean, have to deal with people that can barely speak a word of english, or have to make a complaint about the waiting when all they wanna do is just get them done and move onto the next person...Anyway the last thing is that I got My L'z =P haha fukin finally =)
Today is a double post since I missed out yesterday, so should be up soon, and it's about the one thing green that isn't mean, Marijuana =O
DUN DUN DUNNN....
(Dramatic Music Plays)
Lol Cya in a bit =P
Friday, September 18, 2009
The World & FAIL XD
Now I honestly never thought this world was filled with morons...until i stumbled upon 4chan and failblog XD
Seriously I have never seen so much fail and EPIC FAIL in my life LMFAO
You can check out FailBlog for the hundreds of thousands of fails which are constantly being updated =P but here are a few that personally enjoyed =)
Why in the hell did she put it there??? FAIL XD
LMAO THE MOST DUMBEST FAIL EVER XD - FAILBOOK XD -
Shows You How Fat The Worlds Become...escalator on right...fail...
Check FailBlog for more awesome fails =P
P.S. Watch The Movie 'Idiocracy' its an awesome movie about how the world will fail in the future =P Funny =)
Seriously I have never seen so much fail and EPIC FAIL in my life LMFAO
You can check out FailBlog for the hundreds of thousands of fails which are constantly being updated =P but here are a few that personally enjoyed =)
Why in the hell did she put it there??? FAIL XD
LMAO THE MOST DUMBEST FAIL EVER XD - FAILBOOK XD -
Shows You How Fat The Worlds Become...escalator on right...fail...
Check FailBlog for more awesome fails =P
P.S. Watch The Movie 'Idiocracy' its an awesome movie about how the world will fail in the future =P Funny =)
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Something Fun 2 Try =)
Ok ever wondered how it'd feel like to hallucinate??
Well the next best thing to that is the link in the bottom of my page as best vid 2 watch =)
If you can't be bothered scrolling down to the bottom of the page than here's the link.
Next Best Thing To Hallucinating XD
If you have a history of epilepsy or seizures don't watch this, otherwise you watch this video in full screen and enjoy =D
THIS IS NOT A TRICK!
THIS IS NOT ONE OF THOSE SCARY POP UP CRAP VIDS!
THIS IS NOT A SCAM!
THIS DOES NOT COST MONEY!
THIS DOES NOT HURT!
THIS DOES NOT HAVE VIRUSES!
THIS IS NOT LIKE TAKING MAGIC MUSHROOMS OR WEED AND HALLUCINATING, IT'S AN EFFECT XD!
Well the next best thing to that is the link in the bottom of my page as best vid 2 watch =)
If you can't be bothered scrolling down to the bottom of the page than here's the link.
Next Best Thing To Hallucinating XD
If you have a history of epilepsy or seizures don't watch this, otherwise you watch this video in full screen and enjoy =D
THIS IS NOT A TRICK!
THIS IS NOT ONE OF THOSE SCARY POP UP CRAP VIDS!
THIS IS NOT A SCAM!
THIS DOES NOT COST MONEY!
THIS DOES NOT HURT!
THIS DOES NOT HAVE VIRUSES!
THIS IS NOT LIKE TAKING MAGIC MUSHROOMS OR WEED AND HALLUCINATING, IT'S AN EFFECT XD!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Facebook Quizez and Their Accuracy...
Seriously haven't you found it scary how it can be accurate at times...like deadly accurate...
When you try those personality trait quizzes it's as if they explain your intricate thoughts and feelings in one summary of your results, of course it's a general result that can be applied to a lot of things but still I mean when you really sit there and do those quizzes it's freaky to see the result relate to you.
Couple of the quizzes I've done in recent weeks really spoke to me, or related to me in terms of the results, I mean fark it's just not right how a quiz which can be made by any douch bag can read you like a book =P
Oh well just wanted to say that Facebook quizzes are really accurate and freaky at times, and even surprisingly humerous XD(do the which body part are you? quiz and see what you get =P)
Peace...
When you try those personality trait quizzes it's as if they explain your intricate thoughts and feelings in one summary of your results, of course it's a general result that can be applied to a lot of things but still I mean when you really sit there and do those quizzes it's freaky to see the result relate to you.
Couple of the quizzes I've done in recent weeks really spoke to me, or related to me in terms of the results, I mean fark it's just not right how a quiz which can be made by any douch bag can read you like a book =P
Oh well just wanted to say that Facebook quizzes are really accurate and freaky at times, and even surprisingly humerous XD(do the which body part are you? quiz and see what you get =P)
Peace...
Monday, September 14, 2009
Eeid Shopping =)
Well today was nice, didn't have to go to school to go shopping for clothes XD
I went around every where, in both Paramatta & Bankstown Shopping Centres and seriously was good to just take a day off school and update my wardrobe, specially with these exams coming up. With that have you ever seriously walked into the G-Star Raw clothes shop? It is the most fugliest place ever XD honestly I mean you look at the jeans, every one looks like the other, plus their price tag is $300 for just a pair of jeans(they were the cheapest and ugliest ones I could find) so that is a big What The? I ended up finding alot of clothes, and can't wait for Eeid to come around to try them on and get pics and show'em off =)
With that the end of Ramadan is around the corner, so I also can't wait for that too, it'll be relieving and wonderful to celebrate Eeid this year, need a lift specially since now I've been bored shitless these days =P
That's it for today, thanks for reading =)
I went around every where, in both Paramatta & Bankstown Shopping Centres and seriously was good to just take a day off school and update my wardrobe, specially with these exams coming up. With that have you ever seriously walked into the G-Star Raw clothes shop? It is the most fugliest place ever XD honestly I mean you look at the jeans, every one looks like the other, plus their price tag is $300 for just a pair of jeans(they were the cheapest and ugliest ones I could find) so that is a big What The? I ended up finding alot of clothes, and can't wait for Eeid to come around to try them on and get pics and show'em off =)
With that the end of Ramadan is around the corner, so I also can't wait for that too, it'll be relieving and wonderful to celebrate Eeid this year, need a lift specially since now I've been bored shitless these days =P
That's it for today, thanks for reading =)
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Japanese Entertainment =)
Now today I draw your attention to the Japanese industry of entertainment and how wonderful it is haha =)
Anime in Japan rules the world, like seriously its massive, and even the manga to add to that. Cartoons...well lets say they only gain the focus of children in the US and other western countries. The best anime is English subbed and Japanese dubbed, plain and simple. This is due to the fact Japanese voice actors are a lot more better than the English voice actors, they put more emotion into their lines, and also don't make a teenager sound like a little girl (Naruto Shippuuden for example), and to add the censoring of the anime when it is localised to US is garbage, seriously hate how you get the word basterd for example as being a bad word =P...
Now lets move to the reading material, Manga and Comics. Comics I have no problem with them, their good, especially DeadPool haha =) but I have to say that Japanese comics have more of a lengthy story, and most of them are issues of over 180+ chapters, plus there's the variety of stories and plots so thats good =) and how you have the ability to read over 5 awesome series at once, like now I'm reading Fullmetal Alchemist, Naruto, To-Love-Ru(It Finished T_T), Rosario+Vampire(Finished to T_T), and one more I'm not meant to mention =P
With that there's one more thing with the entertainment I prefer to US...Games.
The games from Japan always have the best eye candy in the world, specially the Final Fantasy Series, they always have the most stunning visuals to make you drool over, and that is a plus always.
Their RPG's have deep stories and the games visuals again make it a reason to keep playing. US...ummm maybe Fable counts since that's the only RPG that wasn't Japanese I played till the end.
To sum it up Japanese entertainment just rules and always gives you something to enjoy =)
Anime in Japan rules the world, like seriously its massive, and even the manga to add to that. Cartoons...well lets say they only gain the focus of children in the US and other western countries. The best anime is English subbed and Japanese dubbed, plain and simple. This is due to the fact Japanese voice actors are a lot more better than the English voice actors, they put more emotion into their lines, and also don't make a teenager sound like a little girl (Naruto Shippuuden for example), and to add the censoring of the anime when it is localised to US is garbage, seriously hate how you get the word basterd for example as being a bad word =P...
Now lets move to the reading material, Manga and Comics. Comics I have no problem with them, their good, especially DeadPool haha =) but I have to say that Japanese comics have more of a lengthy story, and most of them are issues of over 180+ chapters, plus there's the variety of stories and plots so thats good =) and how you have the ability to read over 5 awesome series at once, like now I'm reading Fullmetal Alchemist, Naruto, To-Love-Ru(It Finished T_T), Rosario+Vampire(Finished to T_T), and one more I'm not meant to mention =P
With that there's one more thing with the entertainment I prefer to US...Games.
The games from Japan always have the best eye candy in the world, specially the Final Fantasy Series, they always have the most stunning visuals to make you drool over, and that is a plus always.
Their RPG's have deep stories and the games visuals again make it a reason to keep playing. US...ummm maybe Fable counts since that's the only RPG that wasn't Japanese I played till the end.
To sum it up Japanese entertainment just rules and always gives you something to enjoy =)
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Ashcayz Saturday =P
Well It's a Saturday, and sadly, that's the only day I work on, I'd rather work on a Sunday but that's not the only thing wrong with my work, I also have to wake up 4 a.m. and than unload a trailer of boxes which end up breaking my back, bending my back up and down in a continuous half an hour cycle...it sucks, specially with lack of sleep.
Not only that, but to have to work at Flemington markets...that in itself sucks... ever listened to market folk in the morning?? Surprisingly they're as energetic as a toddler in playschool, it's very annoying.
But onto society shall we, the one thing I hate is people who bargain for the most pathetic discounts ever... example, a second hand garden tap I sell costs $5, a man came today and asked for a discount to $4...fair enough, but than he went on to ask for another discount to $3 and wen turned down he literally got upset and walked off...wtf anyone?? It's pathetic how people in markets hold onto a dollar like its gold, and if they don't get that dollar discount they run off as if it was an atrocity... Society nowadays loves money, not to say I don't, deer god money is the one thing I need always, but when I don't have it, I manage, and when I do have it, I spend it, not caring about price, just enjoyment and needs, I'm not one that likes to hold spare change.
Anyway just wanted to say that flemington markets sucks, especially the people who go there and even the people that work there, I mean are they that dull to work at a market... of all places. I'd never work there if it wasn't of my own free-will...my dad makes me go to help him so yeah sucks even more, since my friday nights I can't stay up and saturdays I come back home as dead as a zombie, which ruins my day...than Sunday comes and I've slept almost the whole morning of it, so there's another day gone :(
So in conclusion my weekends are stuffed, I never have enough free time since I have to put sleep, work, and school in my weekend...doesn't make it much of a weekend does it :(
Plus side I bought a gaming mouse today =D, its so crazy haha I can't control it XD
Not only that, but to have to work at Flemington markets...that in itself sucks... ever listened to market folk in the morning?? Surprisingly they're as energetic as a toddler in playschool, it's very annoying.
But onto society shall we, the one thing I hate is people who bargain for the most pathetic discounts ever... example, a second hand garden tap I sell costs $5, a man came today and asked for a discount to $4...fair enough, but than he went on to ask for another discount to $3 and wen turned down he literally got upset and walked off...wtf anyone?? It's pathetic how people in markets hold onto a dollar like its gold, and if they don't get that dollar discount they run off as if it was an atrocity... Society nowadays loves money, not to say I don't, deer god money is the one thing I need always, but when I don't have it, I manage, and when I do have it, I spend it, not caring about price, just enjoyment and needs, I'm not one that likes to hold spare change.
Anyway just wanted to say that flemington markets sucks, especially the people who go there and even the people that work there, I mean are they that dull to work at a market... of all places. I'd never work there if it wasn't of my own free-will...my dad makes me go to help him so yeah sucks even more, since my friday nights I can't stay up and saturdays I come back home as dead as a zombie, which ruins my day...than Sunday comes and I've slept almost the whole morning of it, so there's another day gone :(
So in conclusion my weekends are stuffed, I never have enough free time since I have to put sleep, work, and school in my weekend...doesn't make it much of a weekend does it :(
Plus side I bought a gaming mouse today =D, its so crazy haha I can't control it XD
Friday, September 11, 2009
Teacher V Student Basketball Game Shocker...
Honestly, the game where the year 12's had the ultimate chance became an upset.
5-0 up in the first few minutes of the game man anyone would've thought year 12's had it from the performance they were giving. Now fast forward few minutes later and all you see is the game is turning and teachers ended up gaining the lead. Crazy match to watch but with its moments, Vudoo sinking couple 3's in while O'riden i think his 3 count was 0?? Well that game was still good to watch and too late for regrets now, specially the surprise appearance of 2 people in the team, karen and jason wu... that was WTF to the extreme, since the team was 'decided' and than you had 2 people to incorporate into a team that always played together...
Now lets talk about the rules... fouls in a basketball game mean you can't hit someone or grab them...but yet there quite a bit of those in the game, and some even uncalled by the ref =O
Had people tripping, being grabbed, slapped, pushed, and some other aggressiveness... (Chong XD...surprising how he's the aggressive one out of all the teachers in every game...wonder why though)
The game but wasn't full of dodgy calls, just a few every now and than, but yeah lets just be happy "we scored this time" - Quote: Evan Lester Aluad XD
Plus side the Hulkinator(Saleh XD) gave Chong a crazy screen seriously was well timed, and Chong looked like he was gonna get a beat down bouncing back like that, haha :)
Ahmed had some good D on Henriquez, lol got him stuck in a corner, but also had couple falls =P
Micheal awesome hustle, always moving and was aggressive in attack
Same with Charles, awesome player no doubt, never stuffed up, and was only player with high accuracy in shots
Mahmoud, what to say, played well, just not enough opportunity for him to lay up or intercept, which are his two strengths
Stephen, nuffing to complain about, played well :)
Ashley got a good touch stopping Chong or Oriden from getting a basket, good cover in D =)
Evan good cover, but wasn't given enough support in his plays, and surprisingly didn't try tricking teachers into passing to him, like he usually does =P and no problem in D, kept it tight.
In the end seniors(year 12) have lost 3 SvT games, now leaving the score 3/6 teachers way...who knows, euro handball, cricket, and volleyball...might win to make it a draw, at least go down with a fight XD
Please Note: Teachers suck regardless, Year 12's Rule XD
5-0 up in the first few minutes of the game man anyone would've thought year 12's had it from the performance they were giving. Now fast forward few minutes later and all you see is the game is turning and teachers ended up gaining the lead. Crazy match to watch but with its moments, Vudoo sinking couple 3's in while O'riden i think his 3 count was 0?? Well that game was still good to watch and too late for regrets now, specially the surprise appearance of 2 people in the team, karen and jason wu... that was WTF to the extreme, since the team was 'decided' and than you had 2 people to incorporate into a team that always played together...
Now lets talk about the rules... fouls in a basketball game mean you can't hit someone or grab them...but yet there quite a bit of those in the game, and some even uncalled by the ref =O
Had people tripping, being grabbed, slapped, pushed, and some other aggressiveness... (Chong XD...surprising how he's the aggressive one out of all the teachers in every game...wonder why though)
The game but wasn't full of dodgy calls, just a few every now and than, but yeah lets just be happy "we scored this time" - Quote: Evan Lester Aluad XD
Plus side the Hulkinator(Saleh XD) gave Chong a crazy screen seriously was well timed, and Chong looked like he was gonna get a beat down bouncing back like that, haha :)
Ahmed had some good D on Henriquez, lol got him stuck in a corner, but also had couple falls =P
Micheal awesome hustle, always moving and was aggressive in attack
Same with Charles, awesome player no doubt, never stuffed up, and was only player with high accuracy in shots
Mahmoud, what to say, played well, just not enough opportunity for him to lay up or intercept, which are his two strengths
Stephen, nuffing to complain about, played well :)
Ashley got a good touch stopping Chong or Oriden from getting a basket, good cover in D =)
Evan good cover, but wasn't given enough support in his plays, and surprisingly didn't try tricking teachers into passing to him, like he usually does =P and no problem in D, kept it tight.
In the end seniors(year 12) have lost 3 SvT games, now leaving the score 3/6 teachers way...who knows, euro handball, cricket, and volleyball...might win to make it a draw, at least go down with a fight XD
Please Note: Teachers suck regardless, Year 12's Rule XD
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Relationships & New Beginnings :)
Well how to start...At this time I just had a relationship that ended for the wrong reasons but also in a sense the right reasons...
Lasted for around month and a bit all together, but was most wonderful time might i add :)
You have the usual in almost every relationship, guy finds girl, girl finds guy funny, guy becomes more interested in girl, than it moves on into a couple relationship and love is in the air. You have you're first argument, you both feel bad, make up, makes you both closer. Stuff like that its fun and good, the bad and good must exist in a relationship otherwise it isn't a relationship, its just a dream, and dreams are over once you wake up...
The one thing that can rip apart a relationship is fate, and its partner in crime is time, together they can destroy anything, even a bond as strong as love. If fate has it its not the right time, than guess what, its not the right time and whatever happens the relationship is either torn or on its last thread. But it's not all bad, because time is also the cure for your pain when a relationship is over.
No matter what one thing every couple has to know is that a relationship takes a lot of work, focus, dedication, patience, and time...Your heart and mind must be focused on the relationship and both people in the relationship must have the same feeling and focus, without it it withers away and breaks, leaving two people in time of confusion and regret.
This is when new beginnings kicks in, and is a time to look forward to :)
New beginning means you can go on with your life and learn from the lessons of your unfortunate relationship knowing you've gained wisdom and experience millions of millions of people would envy to know before experiencing, so be glad about the fact the first time is the worst since its a new thing for you. Now as for the new beginning, look forward dont look back, don't have regrets, think that it was a great relationship, but imagine when you find the right one, how would that feel?? So keep looking forward and be happy that there's always someone out there just be patient and keep searching :)
Those that are in a relationship, stop playing games, try and be more honest and cherish the time you have, because you honestly have no defense for fate and time, so go through with no regrets and complete honesty, it'll help not only you but also your partner :)
As for those with experience in break ups or not just hope your happy and still looking, don't let a bad experience bring you to a stop, always better out there, and only go for the best :)
(By The Way: Sorry for long post but if you didn't catch it I just ended a relationship with a gurl I saw as my world, but time to move on =D)
Lasted for around month and a bit all together, but was most wonderful time might i add :)
You have the usual in almost every relationship, guy finds girl, girl finds guy funny, guy becomes more interested in girl, than it moves on into a couple relationship and love is in the air. You have you're first argument, you both feel bad, make up, makes you both closer. Stuff like that its fun and good, the bad and good must exist in a relationship otherwise it isn't a relationship, its just a dream, and dreams are over once you wake up...
The one thing that can rip apart a relationship is fate, and its partner in crime is time, together they can destroy anything, even a bond as strong as love. If fate has it its not the right time, than guess what, its not the right time and whatever happens the relationship is either torn or on its last thread. But it's not all bad, because time is also the cure for your pain when a relationship is over.
No matter what one thing every couple has to know is that a relationship takes a lot of work, focus, dedication, patience, and time...Your heart and mind must be focused on the relationship and both people in the relationship must have the same feeling and focus, without it it withers away and breaks, leaving two people in time of confusion and regret.
This is when new beginnings kicks in, and is a time to look forward to :)
New beginning means you can go on with your life and learn from the lessons of your unfortunate relationship knowing you've gained wisdom and experience millions of millions of people would envy to know before experiencing, so be glad about the fact the first time is the worst since its a new thing for you. Now as for the new beginning, look forward dont look back, don't have regrets, think that it was a great relationship, but imagine when you find the right one, how would that feel?? So keep looking forward and be happy that there's always someone out there just be patient and keep searching :)
Those that are in a relationship, stop playing games, try and be more honest and cherish the time you have, because you honestly have no defense for fate and time, so go through with no regrets and complete honesty, it'll help not only you but also your partner :)
As for those with experience in break ups or not just hope your happy and still looking, don't let a bad experience bring you to a stop, always better out there, and only go for the best :)
(By The Way: Sorry for long post but if you didn't catch it I just ended a relationship with a gurl I saw as my world, but time to move on =D)
And So It's Born... =D!!
Well looks like I've done it, I've started a blog =O
(Dramatic Music Plays) *DUN DUN DUNNNNN*
=P
Anyway was inspired to make this because well guess what...
Felt like it :P
and... A certain 'Rez' inspired me to since he got one too :P
Hit his blog up as well - http://vudoo.webs.com/
Now enough about the rez'z blog, lets put some focus on mine :P
Basically this is gonna be more like an online journal/diary with updates on my life
plus stuff like news and other interesting tid bits going on in the world.
Well now that the introductory entry is done, time to move on. Enjoy =)
(Dramatic Music Plays) *DUN DUN DUNNNNN*
=P
Anyway was inspired to make this because well guess what...
Felt like it :P
and... A certain 'Rez' inspired me to since he got one too :P
Hit his blog up as well - http://vudoo.webs.com/
Now enough about the rez'z blog, lets put some focus on mine :P
Basically this is gonna be more like an online journal/diary with updates on my life
plus stuff like news and other interesting tid bits going on in the world.
Well now that the introductory entry is done, time to move on. Enjoy =)
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